{ten} things on my 'Can't Wait' List

1. To meet the man of my dreams

--Alright, so it might not be James Franco, but a girl can dream right?..Right??

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2. To continuosly unveil the Lord's plan for my life.

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3. To start creating my own fashion masterpieces [or master-failures--at least in the beginning, I'm a novice at this people!]

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4. To finally watch [500] Days of Summer after it's long awaited return to the library

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5.To travel the world

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6. To actually start and finish a journal-- customized with my own doodles and such

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7. To live with no fears and live the spontaneous life that I was created for.

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8. To bake a delectable batch of chocolatey chocolate brownies this evening.

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9. To move in/decorate/love life in my [future] home

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10. Being frugal long enough to save for a legit camera

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11. To grow old and be the wisest of them all--according to the kiddos of course

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12. To some day in my life see John Mark McMillan in concert

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--Peace and blessings to all, and to all a good day.

[Rae]

Every great friend inspires revelations..

Last night I has an amazing evening catching up with an old friend.
He opened my eyes up to so many different things,
whether they came straight from him or spurred off of his intellectual witty-ness (props to his momma). 

How to live on the wild side and do the things you think are impossible... Climbing impossible tall buildings.  How not to worry about what others think and do what your heart desires... Wearing all spandex AND riding a tandem bike.  How to manage your time for the things that matter most... A list consisting of "Serenading people on the street to 'Your Body is a Wonderland'", "Prince St Cafe", "Learning/Playing guitars in a studio", "Playing the pianos on the streets of Lancaster", "Climbing buildings", and yes the list goes on.  How to have the most fun at little expense... Riding a broken elevator that stops on each floor in a parking garage (trust me it's quite the experience) and then reaching the top to see an amazing view. How to be open and true to yourself and what your feeling, but then also have the strength to trust that God has it all... Talking to an old friend and spilling your guts and all this so they can say what you need to hear, then having a mini revelation.  How to love with all of your heart, and fight for the ones you love... Love without regrets and realize there is no such thing as a "soulmate"(pagan word), but the thought that there are multiple people in the world that you are capable of "making things work" in result forfeiting your fullest happiness.  With that said, sometimes the one your fighting for may be one of the ones you could have your fullest happiness but you can also rest in the thought that there is that other fish out there that could fill you just as much. God is Love... And in the end it all comes down to this verse. God. Is. Love. [1 John 4:16] He is the one and only that can truly fulfill you beyond what your mind can possibly concieve and without His love in you, you cannot completely love your love. 

--You can worship the Lord in everything you do; last night it was in fellowship. And I am at peace with exactly where I am in this journey with my Creator.

Renewed by Grace

I have been renewed by grace and bought in love.  It is so encouraging to see God working in my life and those lives around me! Recently God has been moving in me and I feel Him calling me into a life of missions.  But before I begin that season of my life I need to work out the nooks and crannies of my life now and from the past.  I need to work through the things that I have experienced and gone through, the good and the bad, the hurtful and great.  A short testimony of God working in my life is wahat I experienced yesterday.

A little background. I am not the most frugal person around.  I am quick to commit and spend money and do this and that.  So when I took my car into the shop I thought it couldn't possibly be more than the $270 I thought I had to my name.  While I was at work I got a call from my mom, "You need to call the shop to figure out what exactly needs worked on".  After a short discussion with the kind mechanic, he explained that my total came to around $380.. way more than expected or I had.  Doubt was the first to enter my mind. I knew I didn't have that kind of money and neither did my parents.  But then I was smacked back to reality? "33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." [Matthew 6].  I needed to release my financial troubles to the Lord.  I returned to work and checked my account balance, added up the change in my purse and found cash in my wallet that came to a total of $371.21.  How could this be? The Lord had provided for me!  That night I went to a young adults with my friends and a few friends repaid me loaned money that I wasn't expecting putting me over the amount I need!  But that's not the end... Last night a friend told me that we would be getting reimbursed for the money that wasn't used on the beach.  How crazy does the Lord work and provide time and time again. 

I am in love with my creator and He loves me.  God. Is. Love.

Life.

It's funny how life works out sometimes.  Sometimes you can so easily get caught up in your own world, own problems and not want to stop to love others.  Why does something tragic have to happen in order for a person to realize their purpose?  A dear friend of mine was hit by a car tonight.  She's only twelve and is in intensive care.  Why do things like these happen? I don't know.  But isn't that reason enough to live like Christ?  Shouldn't we be doing all we can to give the glory to God?  Because He is the One and Only that can heal us and our loved ones.  Show the love Christ has given you to those surrounding you, your brothers and sisters in Christ.  If you happen to stumble upon this please keep Paetyn Zeamer in your prayers for a full recovery and allow her to be a witness for Christ.

Basking in the Sweet Sun..

                                  Outer Banks, North Carolina


After pulling an all-nighter to pack and leaving good ol' PA at five in the morning, we finally arrived in Corolla around four in the afternoon. PHEW! And it was all worth it when we pulled into the driveway of our new home for the next week.  Jumping in the hot tub was definitely the way to end the day.  We spent our day at the beach soaking up the sun and loving life.  I took a stroll with a friend down the shore and got lost in conversation.  It was so good to reconnect with another follower of Christ... so encouraging!  I found myself pouring out what had been on my heart lately and realized I need to continuously chase the heart of God no matter the circumstance.  I want Jesus to lead my life.. not for me.  I have been so blessed and this trip was the perfect way to start my summer. 

Hello To New Beginnings.

A new season is a new beginning.  And I really need a refresh button.  A start-over.  To take what I've experienced in the past and use it for the future and whatever God has in store for me.  I'm so ready to be renewed!  I've seen how the Lord has worked in my life before and I'm ready to get back on that track. I pray continuously that I won't veer from the path but I fail.  Failure is a part of growth, now I understand that.  I'm ready to be tested.  The Lord will provide me with the strength to get through whatever is in my path.  I'm ready for my will to be strengthened.  Renew my heart lord because only love prevails.